My Story: School Again

OMG... I've just realized that I only have one posting in this blog over year 2009 :(

Today, I would like to share about my life. It's about questions in my mind after 2 years graduated with bachelor degree in computer science. What do I want? What is my destiny? Life had been felt so flat and no passion if I did the same things every day. No challenge, nothing to pursue, what a boring life if I stuck in the satisfaction of life. I'd rather say, I'm not satisfied with what I have achieved now. I have to gain knowledge just like many heroes in video games raising up their level skills (I love playing dotA :D). So, I decided going to school again.

Education is not cheap at present. Higher level of education means higher fee. I would like to enroll in business school, but the fee is about 20 times my monthly salary [*shocked*T_T]. I looked at my savings, oow... it's not enough... I couldn't afford it.

Somehow, God made a way that I was not thinking before. In the beginning of this year, I had been offered jobs as an outsource programmer. It took some effort by sacrificing my vacation time. After worked 8 hours a day, I worked again until midnight. Sunday, holiday, or any vacation day, I spent it in front of my computer. Tired... but happy after I received the payment :)

With the savings increase and financial plan, I can say proudly that I could afford money for business school fee. This is one of my pride where I can see some people are funded by their parents while I'm not. I'm funded by God, my big boss :D Of course God's hand wouldn't reach me if I was lazy and not pleased. Now, it's already one month I've been busy with my study at business school.

I have principle which I learned from Ciputra (an entrepreneur in Indonesia) that if we work hard and do the right things, God will open the way. [In Bahasa Indonesia: jika kita bekerja keras dan berbuat benar, Tuhan pasti buka jalan]

Through this writing, I want to thank Defendy and Sera. You have become extension of the hand of God. Thank you.

Sense of Happiness

Today before the dawn, I woke up because of sneezing. I couldn't sleep again so I turned on my laptop and connected to the internet. "You've got 2 new messages", who's sending me emails? I was surprised, it is an old friend of mine. I replied her email and not long after that she replied my email. She hadn't slept too. In this early morning, we had some little chat.

My friend is a nurse and working at the hospital now. I haven't seen her for a long time. It seems both of us had changed a lot.

In our chat, I told her that lately I felt boring with my work, my routine, my life. I felt lack in spirit. And then she asked me, "Why do you bored with your work?" I couldn't tell her why do I feel that way. She added her sentences, "Once I felt bored with my work, my friend gave me good advice. When you feel bore, try to remember what is your purpose to work? the reason you want to wake up early in the morning? and for who?... In my heart I replied, I work and come earlier in the morning not only just for myself but to see my patients shining faces after I help them fulfill their needs. I work to make people happy."

Her words awaken my spirit. Her words are important things I had forgotten. It is sense of happiness when I'm helping other people.