Sunday, February 13, 2011

Enemy Inside Me

Too many activities have made me busy and distract my mind to only think about college and work. It is tough when I realize that almost all of my life I have spent my time for school and work. I have nothing to pursue my dream now, but I feel so lucky in several occasions. One occasion I was worried about book cost for study, another one about transportation cost. Luckily, my friend lent his book (thanks to mricky), and I've also got free-ride on the way to campus or going back home (thanks to marlen and yunita). They have become bless for me. And recently, some of my friends are complaining about their lecturer supervisor in guiding thesis subject. They told me that their lecturer supervisor are not giving feedback, hard to meet, or even don't care with them. It is vice versa with me. My lecturer supervisor asks my progress regularly and complained that I am too slow among his students. I'm grateful that he pushes me to consistently make progress and give me hint to study more.


As a human, I do have biggest challenge in my life, and I guess it is the same with you. My biggest challenge is how I can knock out myself. I often feel I'm not in the mood to write my thesis. Fortunately my lecturer supervisor has pushed me. But important part that I should remember is there might be no other people who could motivate you on other occasion. It is only you, the key to make changes.

- Have you ever in diet program but you cannot stand to eat a lot of food?
- Have you ever thought that you should study for the exam but instead you close your book and prefer playing game?
- Have you ever considered moving forward but instead you live in the past?
- Have you ever drowned in the sadness and fear won’t let you go?

Well I do.. for all the questions I remark, my answers are yes, I have.. what about you?

To achieve our goal is not as easy as flipping over our palm. There is price that we should pay. Often we feel pain, disappointed, humiliated, underestimated, sad, etc. before we get happiness and sweet result. If negotiation cannot reach consensus of peacefulness, then war is needed. Try to knock out enemies inside you and do something right. Suffer feeling will not make you die, it only make you stronger if you can past it.